Looking at the Moon

I feel more at peace today than I have in quite some time. It's hard to say if this is due to a full night's sleep, not feeling the imminent demise of Deborah's employment any longer, or because I'm finally embracing my position during this time of my life.

Does it really matter why I feel at peace? I have to answer this question with a hearty "not really". I don't feel even the slightest worry. Not for the future. Not for my finances. Not for whether or not my book is going to sell when I finally get it finished at some point in the (I hope) not too distant future. No, I didn't have some grand revelation from scripture this morning that changed my perspective on life. I read Philippians, which is one of Paul's great letters, but nothing really jumped out at me. Then I read Psalm 80 and the accompanying passage out of Treasury of David, and nothing in particular came out and glowed off the page.

But I don't really need these kinds of things on a daily basis. I just feel more grounded than I have in a while. I'm in Kansas, not in the mountains right next to a river like I was for the past four months. It's like I'm beginning to learn, and I mean really LEARN that my surroundings don't matter. I remember one night when I was leaving work in Fort Mill, South Carolina. I looked up at the moon, which was full that night. I wasn't thinking about anything in particular about the moon, the night sky, or anything like that. I just glanced up at the moon while I was walking across the parking lot toward my truck. And I heard God say, clear as day, "That's the same moon you've looked at for your whole life. It doesn't matter where you are, Aaron, I'm always right there with you." That simple statement really blew me away. In those two short sentences, God affirmed His calling, purpose, and protection and love over my life. What's really cool about that is that the moon I've looked at my whole life is the exact same moon that Abraham looked up at, possibly as he travelled from Ur. And as permanent as that may seem to us, God was around before any of it was spoken into existence, and He was thinking about me and what I'd be thinking and doing at this very moment as I'm writing this before He spoke a word of creation. He was thinking about you, too. And He knew then what you'd be thinking when you read this.

No matter where we are or what we're doing, no matter where our lives take us, God is always right there, and He always knows exactly what we're thinking about, struggling with, worrying about, and hoping for. He's known all of that since before He spoke light into existence. He gave us light to see by before there was even anything physical to see. If He planned that little detail out so well, why would we ever think He'd just leave us to wander around in the darkness by ourselves? Just a random musing this morning in windy Wichita, Kansas.

Until next time, stay safe, and above all, be true to yourself.

That Aaron Guy